...ItGOesON::::::: My Resting Place

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Long time no blog! Have been super busy with the new house. Slowly Dean and I are settling down in Fanling. Fanling seems to be the best place to live in for foreign missionaries since there're some foreign missionary agencies based in Fanling. I've been here only for a month but I've already met quite a few foreign missionaries from different missionary groups.

It's such an experience talking to Christians from different theological backgrounds. Honestly it can be quite challenging sometimes when their understanding or interpretation of certain scriptures and doctrines are quite different from mine. I'm always tempted to judge their theology not "correct" or not "of the Word". And the temptation can go so crazy and I struggle so much to see what is really right in God's eye. So often I become very disappointed and frustrated for I'm too limited to understand the unlimited Word; the unlimited truth; the unlimited God. He's indeed the origin of all richnesses. Sometimes God poured down His grace on me by giving me some revelation. I used to rejoice in those revelation. However later I found the more I know the more I grieve. Just like what Solomon said in Ecclesiastes "For in much wisdom is much vexation, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow (1:18)". But the more I grieve the more I see the truth which is God's love and grace. I'm set free when I come before His throne of grace. I'm not called to understand everything but to trust my doubts of everything in Him. Rest I find in Him; peace He brings to me. This is what I'm called to gain, out of His grace. Just as Israelites are called to enter Cannon.