...ItGOesON::::::: March 2007

Thursday, March 01, 2007

This afternoon I had a fight with Dean out of jealousy. That wasn't cool. Actually that's dumb - totally meaningless. Well, maybe that means something. At least I could see how insecure I am about myself and how much I'm in love with Dean that I want all of his attention. I want to be special in his eyes.

Then I became sarcastic about myself and that made me feel better. Can't explain why. Sometimes I just hate some characteristics of girls. Girls are annoying; pain in the neck. Unfortunately, I'm a girl. Other time I enjoy being a girl. Girls are lovely and irresistible.

Anyway, I had a fight with Dean. Then I thought of those days before I got Dean. Many nights in my room I prayed that God would give me an Issac. For having a partner who loves God is not about good luck nor good decisions, but God's grace. So, at the pantry I prayed for a while...

Tonight I called Dean. I told him that I love him.

And I love God too.