「 auditited on 12:44 PM 」

*OOO* Got 60 points for my little Fluffie!! I can get it a new habitat for it now *yay*. But I think I'd better save some more, so that I can have more choices *hehe*. Hey, to people who have played with my blogpet, I thank you guys sooo much! I know I wouldn't have got that many points without your support!

God challenged me so much yesterday. I'd been thinking of leaving the company I'm working at. As I couldn't handle the complicated relationship among my collegues. They gave me so little respect. No matter how much peace I felt in my heart every morning, once I started to work among the guys at the company, I collapsed. For so long I didn't understand why God put me in such situation. This job is God's answering his people's prayers. Before I got the offer, the brothers and sisters in Melbourne had been praying for me getting a job. I was so confused when God's mercy became a torture to me...

Until last night, on the way home, God asked me a question: Why can't you love the people in your workplace? I answered the question with no hesitation: They're horrible people!

"But I love them, and my salvation is for them" He said.

The words hit me so hard that I broke down and finally I understood what God wanted me to learn in this situation. Loving nice or good or lovable people (like my Deany) isn't difficult. But disciples aren't only called to love good people but also bad people. Actually, there're no good people. All people are bad in some ways as we all sin. There're only two kinds of people - saved and not yet saved; forgiven and not yet forgiven. God wants His people to love the unsaved and the unforgiven. Since love drives the saved to preach the gospel to the unsaved.

Now I know this job is really of God's grace. He shapes me through all the hardships, so that I can be a blessing to the world in the coming days.

「 auditited on 9:36 PM 」

Dean and I are loving our new blog pet. We're trying to figure out how to make it super happy so that we can gain some points to buy the little bunny stuff.

Oh, there's one sad news: We won't be able to go to Europe for our honeymoon as the airline didn't allow us to delay the departure date. (It's a long story and I'm not going to tell it all here.) It's such a shame. Anyway, I'm happy as long as I've got Dean with me.

Been off for two days. It's really a blessing from God. Though I was pretty sick, I'd got time to spend with God - reading the bible, listening to sermons, praying and singing hyms. Worshipping God is so norishing and I think it's the dynamic of my life. Working in the business world, I sometimes get distracted by money, success and the glory of man. Worshipping God always reminds me that my life is totally for the manifestation of God's glory. God's glory is best revealed through our weaknesses. As "my power is made perfect in weakness." (2Cor12:9 - ESV) At the place I work, people boast about their strengths. However, "I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me." (2Cor12:9 - ESV)

「 auditited on 10:07 PM 」

Back to work today. Was horribly sick that couldn't go to work yesterday. I'm so thankful that Dean came to my house and babysat me the whole day. Actually, Dean hasn't totally recoverd yet he still sacrificed his rest to look after me.

The most unforgettable thing of yesterday is how much Dean understood me. While I was in bed (I was in bed the whole day), I kept moaning how sore my back was, and Dean understood how the pain was since he'd got the same cold just two days ago (Obviously, he spread the cold to me). Dean's understanding isn't second-hand, it's first-hand. Second-hand understanding is gained from seeing, being told, and even traning; on the other hand, first-hand understanding can only be gained from one's own experience. That's why first-hand understanding is always soothing and comforting. It may explain why Jesus had taken the form and life of man.

"For we do not have a High Priest Who is unable to understand and sympathize and have a shared feeling with our weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of temptation, but One Who has been tempted in every respect as we are, yet without sinning."

Hebrews 4:15 (Amplified Bible)

「 auditited on 12:41 PM 」

Took a day off for looking after Dean yesterday. Just back to the office this morning, one of my collegues told me how horrible it was yesterday, and how much our company lost. Lucky that I didn't come to work. As I don't think I'd be able to bare the burdens. Indeed, all things work together for the ones who love God.

Just then recieved an offer from Pete. He's giving out two tickets to Europe as the present for Dean and I's engagement. Dean thought it could be our honey moon. Wow! Never thought about going to Europe, though I so want some of my relatives there to meet Dean. I'd been expecting to have our honey moon in Pacific countries. Well, if I'm really going to Europe, that means I'd be able to meet my relatives! It'd be too good to be true!!

「 auditited on 7:08 PM 」

This day is filled with mixed feelings - good and bad... I was so excited about today as my family came to the celebration for my graduation. We took heaps of pictures! (As there're too many, I'd only put a few on here.) They even bought me a bunch of gorgeous flowers! Everyone dressed so nicely for me - I felt soo honoured! They all were happy that I finally can be an independent adult as I've got my professional. Mummy was especially happy and was so amazed by how quick time flies.

Unfortunately, Dean got sick... He'd got a sore throat yesterday and the sore throat's brought him fever this afternoon. It was such a pain looking at someone you love suffering. And the limit you have in helping a sick person makes you feel so guilty... But such bad feelings are good as they reveal how much you really love or care about someone.

Dean's been a brave boy the whole day. He was so sick that he could hardly balance himself yet he came to my graduation. He helped me with putting on the gown, holding bags and flowers... Those were no small deeds when he was sick like that. I'm so thankful for Dean and I love him so much.

Dean's helping me to put on the gown.

While waiting for Mummy and Daddy.

*Ooo*

Emmy, my classmate, and I.

「 auditited on 10:15 PM 」

Got a message from Amy!! Soo excited!! Oh, why am I so in love with the sisters in Melbourne? We've only known each other for months... But we always talk and be silly like we've known for years. The Melbourne trip is such an unforgettable experience.

It all began at one night when I was spending time with God. I was pretty confused about whether Africa or Australia I should go to (for a short term missionary). I'd prayed about the issue whenever it came up in my mind. But still I couldn't make a decision. I wanted to go to Africa because I felt being called to serve children (I was teaching some kids at that time). And the orphange in Africa was asking for more workers. On the other side, I wanted to go to Australia because I used to live in there for a while. I'd always had some funny feelings towards this country. Though I knew exactly what I'd be doing in Africa, I also wanted to go for Australia...

On that night, after the devotional, I saw a vision - I was having a good time with a group of Chinese around my age. The vision didn't last long. I couldn't even see the faces, but somehow I knew they were in Melbourne...

Later I told my mentor that I was determined to go to Melbourne. She was pretty against this idea, so did my cell group leader. They thought Dean was the reason why I chose Melbourne. I didn't tell them the true reason. It'd sound too weak and gay to them... I held on to the friends I saw in the vision...

Eventually I met them, in Melbourne. They're Amy, Carmen, Kitty, and Connie. They're so different from the friends I have in Hong Kong. I can't explain why, but indeed they're a blessing to me. They're the first group of close christian friends I have after all my former spiritual partners left Christ... I love them, and I never regret the Melbourne trip.

「 auditited on 11:34 AM 」

"The righteous shall live by his faith." Habakkuk 2:4 (ESV)

Trust in the power of the Holy Spirit
Trust in God's power
Trust that He is using me
And He will use me more
I am the one He saved with His life
He did not sacrfice His life for a crap

Though Right now I'm weak
This is part of His will
His grace is manifested through my weakness

The changes I long to make are what
He put in my heart through the Holy Spirit
They're His will and
I believe God will perform for His will
He will finish his work

Trust that He will grant me the power
I need to make those changes
I trust in the power of the Holy Spirit
If he can turn a sinner to a righteous
He can transform me
For I know
It's Christ living in me

「 auditited on 11:43 PM 」

*Yay* Finally got a new blogskin. Have been looking for one for so long. I like this new green skinnie - so refreshing and cute. Feels like this is what I can write some crazy stuff on - haha. Plus, the theme "where is my home?" reminds me of where my home REALLY is.

Right now I'm waiting for the bathroom. My sister's using it... I prefer night shower than morning so that I can sleep in. Oh, I've started to think about my new year resolutions. Some of the wishes I put on last year's have been achieved, like an ipod (eventually I got an ipaq which is way better than an ipod). And some haven't... like I still have the crazy party animal neighbor... Somehow thing's getting better now. He doesn't have parties as often as he used to (thank God !).

For one thing I thank God so much. Last year when I was writing my resolution list I was all by myself; but now I've got Deany standing by me all the time. See how unpredictable life is!! There's not much time left for 2006, but I'm so looking forward to the short time remain! For I know God's gonna do something amazing day by day!

「 auditited on 12:42 PM 」

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose."

Romans 8:28 (NKJ)

I found out that God put Dean and I together not because we get along with each other, but because we're not compatible with each other. And the reason we don't get along is that we're too similar to each other. It's just like when John and James (sons of Zebedee; sons of thunder) come together. How God put people with similar personality together always reminds me how people polish gemstones. One way to polish gemstones is abrasion. The way abrasion gets rid of the roughness of gems is to make use of the roughness of gems or other substance.