「 auditited on 10:56 PM 」

It's very hard to believe that I have my folder back!! I lost it at train station ten days ago. I had the staff at the station to help but they couldn't find it. I was so hopeless that I thought I would never see it again. And I'd buy Pete his dvd and pay the library for the lost books. During the past ten days, I sometimes asked God why did he let such a "tragedy" happen. My budget for the Australia trip is already tight, and then I had to pay the extra money. Everytime when I had such thought, the Holy spirit comforted me and reminded me that everything is still in God's control and everything happens for His purpose. I thank God for sending the comforter so that I can always rejoice in His love through circumstances.

Never had I imagined I'd have the folder in my hands again. Last Saturday, when Doug, Pete, Jason, Dean and I are heading to the waterfall, a librarian called and told me to pick up my folder. Someone had taken the folder to the Shatin public library. I'm a hundred percent sure that I had never been to Shatin public library. And today's the first time I went there (took me a while to find it...). I asked the librarian who brought the folder there. He didn't know... Actually, it doesn't really matter. What matters is I have my folder back!!

On the way home, I thought about what God wants me to learn in this experience... God is an awesome God. Nothing is impossible in Him. He listens and answers our prayers (A few brothers and sisters had prayed for me). He reveals his love and power in His time. My experience reminds me the story of Lazarus. Jesus came late and everybody was hopeless. However He taught us not to underestimate God's power from human's perspective...

I bless His name.

「 auditited on 3:03 PM 」

Finally I'm home! Home sweet home! Had been staying at Dean's place for a while. Well I love being around people; people are always so much fun. But it's good to be alone sometimes. Haven't had dinner with mummy, daddy, Iris, Sean and Karen yet. I had a cheap dinner with Dean in China before I go home. Anyway, I'm looking forward to having dinner with the whole family tomorrow night.

My back is so sore... Had been helping Dean do the packing for three days. Hope it'll get well soon. I like working with Dean. You learn so much about a person when you see the way he works, especially of the attitutude toward their duty or responsibility. I'm very proud of Dean. He's very loyal to his duty.

Can't write anymore though I want to... So tired and sleepy. Having a lesson with Sarotta tomorrow. She's the talented Kid Dean likes so much. Dean's not going with me as he needs to work the whole day at the office... Hope she won't be too disappointed.

Had lots of fun with my students today. There was a new guy in my class. His name's Mahlu. Mahlu's an pure african, a very Chinese african. He speaks English and Chinese (Cantonese and Mangarin), but his Chinese's far more better than his English. His parents are very obsessed with China. They spent most of their holidays in China. Actually I was a bit shocked when I first saw Mahlu because he's black. I wasn't being a racist, just he's the first black student I've ever had. Black people aren't common in Hong Kong. Most of these black people are not rich as they usually make money by selling their strength. Obviously, Mahlu is an exception - he's a rich kid; his parents are rich. He lives in a very nice place; and he goes to a so called "noble" kinder-garten where my students go to.

I always learn something from my students. Today I learned two things. First, kids learn more than you think through games. Second, must read bible stories to my own kids. After class, I played "Reese says (or Simon says)" with the kids. Everybody knows the rules of "Reese/Simon says" - you do what Simon says. Most kids like this game. However, Sarotta didn't like it. She didn't want to follow what I say so she suggested that everyone should do what they want to do. Then Mahlu said games wouldn't be funny without rules. That is soo true! And deep! During the class I read the kids a story about tooth-fairy. Tooth fairy is a fairy who collects children's fallen milk teeth. Personally I don't believe there's such a creation called fairy. But I still wanted to know what my students think. I asked them if they believe there are fairies. Mahlu believed it with no doubts. He said he hadn't seen one yet but he knew they would come to him when he's asleep. This is cute and it shows that kids believe what they are told.

「 auditited on 1:42 AM 」

Had a great time with Dean in the Philipino fellowship. Lots of fun; lots of laughters. Dean was very sleepy on the way home. He's still recovering from the cold. He was so sleepy that he crashed into my bed once we got home. While he was asleep, I sat beside him and looked at his sleeping face. Calm and peaceful. I was so amazed by the way God made his face look so right - the hair, forehead, eyebrows, eyes, lashes, nose, lips, cheeks, jaws and beard. He's an angel.

Dean, I'm so confused. What is love? I told you so many times that I love you, and I did mean it. But how could I hurt you so many times when I truly love you? How did love bring us so much tears and sorrows? I don't understand.

God
How do you bless the people you love?
Do you bless them with tears and sorrows?
How can tears and sorrows turn into blessings?
Will I ever understand why?

「 auditited on 2:59 PM 」

Dear Lord, blessed be your name. I thank you so much for healing Dean, in such a short time. I'm still amazed that his fever can go in 3 hours time. I'm sure that's the power of our God almighty and His children's prayers. Dean wasn't even able to walk around two. His temperature was about 101'F. About two hours later, he was able to chat with me and smile at me. His temperature went down to about 99'F. Around five, he and I went to the post office to send her sister a dvd. After that he even went to the market with me and Pete; it was an one-hour walk. It was such a blessing to see Dean being Dean again. That was the time I realized how cute and charming Dean usually is *smile*.

Well, still haven't heard from the custom service at the train station. But it no longer bothers me. Of course I still want to have it back. But today I got more than what I lost. I lost what I can buy with money; I earn what money can't buy. They are love and mercy from God and my friends. My dear friends, I thank you so much for leaving me encouraging messages. I appreciate them so much as they mean a lot to me. I cried a bit when I was reading them (I'm such an emotional person). I so thankful for you guys - I love you.

「 auditited on 4:39 PM 」

This morning was a nightmare. I was almost an hour late for work. When I was rushing to the lesson, the parent called and told me not to come. At that time I was nearly there. So I tried asking the parent to let me teach at least half an hour for the transportation fee is not cheap. But she said she'd see me next week. Then I took a train to go back to Dean's place to work on another student's worksheets. Unfortunately I got the wrong train. So I got off and caught the right train. Finally I arrived Sheung Shui with the right train. But when I was getting off the train and looking for the folder keeping all my teaching materials (Worksheets, Pete's dvd, and two books borrowed from a local public library), I recognized I'd lost it, at nowhere! I could't remember where I put it. It could be on the wrong train or at the platforms. I had no idea where the folder was. I went to the custom service center at the train station and asked for help. They were very helpful. However, they couldn't find my folder... God may you bring the folder back to me and keep my job as I work for Dean and the short mission trip to Australia.

Dean's still very sick. The fever hasn't gone yet. I'm so worried... There's no one around. Pete's gone to China. Doug and Jason won't show up until this evening (I guess). The mission team from New Zealand are still having a rest. They are exhausted after the long flight. No one is able to take care of Dean. Dean's sleeping right now. And if his condition doesn't get any better after two or three hours time. I'll have to take him to a doctor. I originally am having a lesson at five. But I just cancelled it because Dean needs me to take care of him. God, please give me the love and strength to take care of Dean, and please heal Dean.

God I praise that your love and grace are still the same through all circumstances.

TEARS SORROWS QUESTIONS


All for God's glory

For you, O God, tested us;
You refined us like silver.
You brought us into prison
And laid burdens on our backs.

You let men ride over our heads;
We went through fire and water,

But you brought us to a place of abundance.


(Psalm 66: 10-12)


I've had many tears and sorrows
I've had questions for tomorrow
There've been times I didn't know right from wrong
But in every situation
God gave blessed consolation
That my trials only come to make me strong

I've been a lot of places
And I've seen so many faces
But there've been times I've felt so all alone
But in that lonely hour
In that precious, lonely hour
Jesus let me know I was His own

Through it all
Through it all
I've learned to trust in Jesus
I've learned to trust in God
Through it all
Through it all
I've learned to depend upon His Word

So I thank God for the mountains
And I thank Him for the valleys
I thank Him for the storms He's brought me through
Cause if I never had a problem
I wouldn't know that He could solve them
I wouldn't know what faith in His Word could do

Through it all
Through it all
I've learned to trust in Jesus
I've learned to trust in God
Through it all
Through it all
I've learned to depend upon His Word
Yes, I've learned to depend upon His Word
I've learned to depend upon His Word


(Selah)

「 auditited on 2:36 AM 」

I love Jehovah
Because He's chosen me
To be His lover
His representative
His heir

Once I was
Dust in the wind
Worm in the earth
Yet He put his robe on my shoulders
Covered all my shame
He put his ring around my finger
Brought back my dignity and glory

I love Jehovah
Because He's chosen me
When He knows every mistake I'd made
And will make
He knows I'd defile His robe and ring
Yet He never forsakes His chosen one
For His son has come and died for
Every mistake I've made and will made in my life

「 auditited on 2:41 PM 」

Nothing is better than being with God alone
He always listens
No matter what I say
He always knows what are really inside my words
He knows me and
He is patient with me

God, I'm so tired of being a listener
I want to be listened
I want someone to think about what I'm really saying
And what I really mean
God, you know I've cried so many times
For having no one to listen to me
I've been trying my best to be a good listener
Because I want to be listened
But why?
Why no one is listening?
They only talk!
Maybe they don't have enough listeners around them
Although I'm happy to be a listener
I want to be listened
At least sometimes

Nothing is better than being with you God
You always listen
No matter what I say
You always know what are really inside my words
You know me and
You are patient with me

「 auditited on 2:20 PM 」

Dean couldn't come to my teaching today. He had a meeting with some church leaders. I was a little bit disappointed and Gordon was very very disappointed. He didn't smile and say "Hello miss Reese" until his mum told him to do so. The first sentence he uttered is "Where is Mr. Dean?" "He can't come 'cause he's at work" I practiced this answer a few times on the bus. I knew Gordon would ask. Then he asked "Will he come next time?". Gordon's cute. Little Gordon didn't concentrate on today's lesson. Maybe he missed Dean too much *haha*. His mum and I joked about that after the lesson.

Gordon lives in an area where rich people live. There're many nice houses in that area. On the way back, I looked at those houses and thought it would be so good to live in a house like that. I don't think I'd ever become rich enough to live in those houses, but I know I'll have a house a hundred or even a thousand times nicer than those houses. The house is the wedding gift my heavenly Father has prepared for me. He will give me the key of the house on the day of wedding of me and His Son. All my properties are in eternity. Things we can see don't last; only things we can't see last forever.

「 auditited on 1:08 PM 」

So bad that I can't have BBQ with Dean and the Autumn Rain guys... I so wanted to come but I didn't want to bug my mum with another night eating out. Plus I want to spend more time with my family. I love hanging out with Dean and his teammates but I want to show my family, especially mummy, how much I care for them. Talked to my brother Sean after dinner. Never had I recognized Sean's a man now. He's thinking of getting a full time job and renting a flat for his own. Sean's no more the little kiddo I knew. He's much more mature now. I'm so proud of him. Didn't talk much to mum and dad (too much talk with Sean), but still I'm happy I could have dinner with them. I love my family - all of them are lovely people. I'm a horrible person yet I've got a wonderful family that all of my friends envy of *smile*. I'm so blessed.

Oh Dean and I were trying to get my daddy an English name. You know, almost everyone's got an English name in Hong Kong. My mum's got one too - Jane. My dad still hasn't got one. So I asked Dean to help. Dean wasn't helpful this time. He kept giving me names that are so not my dad, for example, Max... Anyway, we still haven't got a nice one... Want to show dad his English name on the fathers' day, *hehe* and see his reaction.

I got Dean's parents' message on my blog again. This is such an honour to me. I'm not a good writer but still they read my words. How nice they are. I want to thank them here - for reading my blog, and for Dean. Dean is a "best" kid a parent can have *smile*.

「 auditited on 1:03 PM 」

So tired; I felt asleep on the bus on the way home. Didn't have enough sleep last night and had to work early in the morning. I like having Dean as my teaching assistant. He's helpful especially when I'm sleepy and tired. I also like watching him playing with Gordon. Gordon likes Dean a lot. He listened to him, told him many of his stories, and showed him all his toys. Dean had an arm wrestle with Gordon. They had so much fun. Dean let the little boy win a few times so that the boy thinks he's capable to play the game. Watching Dean and Gordon always makes me smile. It's kind of sweet. I personally think Dean will make a good dad. Gordon's daddy doesn't play with Gordon often and Gordon doesn't have any sibling. So you can imagine he can get quite bored sometimes... I'm quite happy that Gordon and Dean get along with each other. Gordon even asked if Dean's coming next time. Gordon's cute and so is Dean. Dean got pretty excited when I told what Gordon said. Dean's such a big kid.

I didn't have time for devotional today... It's a shame. But God let me experience his love and mercy by placing nice people around me. My life's a lot different with them. I feel so blessed. Oh, went to China with Dean and Pete today. We all got through! I thank God for listening to our prayers. God's always good.

「 auditited on 3:06 AM 」

Forever I want to stay in this place
Your sanctuary
My refuge, my rest, my home
Never will I look for other places
For I have you here with me
What else do I want?
You are all I need for all my life
You are the way, the truth, and the life
You alone can feed all my needs
Here I find the peace the world can never gives
Here around your throne
I sing, I dance, I laugh, I sweat
In joy
For your glorious love