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Sunday, July 09, 2006

Dean's coming back tomorrow *yay*! Before Dean went to Vietnam, I told him that I didn't want him to go... And he said "but you can spend more time with God". He was right. I had much time with God these few days. Maybe I was less distracted (Dean is so attractive that he can be very distracting sometimes...), God spoke to me a lot. He brought up many big issues like the use of money, concept of commitment, and self image/identity.

I think the most full on part is the use of money. Recently, I'm having problems with it. Sometimes when I was walking on streets and saw some "pretty" girls, I looked at their faces, hair, and their outfits. I was tempted to dress myself up like them... Because I know that's not difficult - these girls are only made of nice hair styles, cosmetic, and fashionable clothes. But hey, that's a trap! - a money trap. Once you start "investing" money in your appearance, you can't stop! You'll just spend more and more money to maintain the good look. I've experienced that at teens. I was even in debt!

Jesus said "for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also (Matthew 6:21)". In Chinese translation, treasure also means money. So if I spend much money on good looks, my heart are in the good looks. Is it alright? Well, the bible tells us that "charm is deceitful and beauty is passing (Proverbs 31:30)". No matter how much we spend, beauty doesn't last (just look at Elizabath Tylor). Why should we place our heart in something doesn't last when we know there is something which lasts forever? It's God's kingdom. His kingdom lasts forever. That's the only place my heart should be, and so should my money.