...ItGOesON::::::: Running

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Missing running a lot... thinking about joining Dean's training. They do running, gym and swimming. Well I can't swim, so I think I can only join running and gym. Emmy and Liza will probably object my idea... But, I feel like running very much, plus my back's getting better these few days. I wanna go back to those good old days; I wanna be fit again. Dean said I'm fit but I know I'm not. And my legs are so pale now - I gotta tan them. All my girlies wannna look white and pale... Man, it's just not my thing.

Oh, Told Iris I wanted to break up with him this morning... It'd been too hard for me to carry on... I could bare it no more... My conscience and others' objection... I was in the middle and torn... Iris asked me a very challenging question - "Do you really love him?" It took me a while to answer the question.

I know I love him - I no longer check out good-looking models on billbroads, tv and magazines, since I've got a crush on him... *blush* I wanna take care of him. I wanna see him smile. I want him to be happy. I love him. Why would I wanna leave him then? I thought the idea will benefit both of us... I was wrong. I was only being selfish - I just wanted to be "comfortable"; I was only being lazy - I just don't wanna deal with the problems. Is real love meant to be selfish and lazy? Certainly not! How stupid I was... How can I give him up just because the situation's hard? God loves us through all types of circumstances. I love since God loves me first. I should learn how to love from God. I don't give up because of situations.

Love is just like running a marathon, endurance is needed.